Howl, vexation of love!
ben goertzel
Vexation of mind
Vexation of eye
Vexation of spirit
Look at the gorgeous girl
Head floating
In the rage-filled sky
Vexation of mind
Vexation of eye
Vexation of body
I saw the best minds of my generation destroyed by madness,
starving hysterical naked, dragging themselves thru Negro
streets at dawn, drunk on fermented polluted rain,
vanishing into nowhere Zen New Jersey, mental molochs
with a thousand blind eyes
She comes over the sea
with her round blue eye
She hold her head too high
She better take care
she don't turn zombie
Escaping the handcuffs of space,
we are rocking and laughing
We speak, but our lives are under attack
under the urination of astronauts
and the evacuation of brain matter
My darling, everything is wonderful
Howl, children! howl again,
copulate ecstatically,
collage the images of your memory across
the posterboard sky
Howl holy laughter
Vexation of mind
Vexation of spirit
Vexation of eye and eye
Sweet love hellacious! I'm with you in Brooklyn
where you're madder than I am
although you're not really
I'm with you in Brooklyn
where you suck my cock with awesome vacuum power
derived from the living human Jesus, who will never return
your soul to your body again from its pilgrimage to the void
I'm with you in Brooklyn while you fuck that stupid jerk instead of
me, with a mind that transcends time – Maybe his cock is
longer or fatter or not inconceivably even both, but so
what, I have the magic of 20 universes in every drop of my
sperm, seething and waiting to enchant you they will,
they will, or will they, they?
I'm with you in Brooklyn,
insane as a weasel
I'm with you in Brooklyn,
howling out like a grandmother who got her electric dildo
stuck in her rectum
I'm with you in Brooklyn,
You insufferable bitch, with your coy tricks and your carcass-like
stained glass lust cruelty
You circle my head like a rotting halo
eaten by superintelligent maggots
crushed by the fucking sun
I've seen the best minds of my generation sucked
into the folds of your cunt
Howl, baby! howl like fucking music,
fucking music howl and howl!
Robot apartments! Invisible suburbs! Death of the human dream!
Yellow flower of industry
posing for your nipple,
its stem sticking out of your ass
I'm not with you in Brooklyn,
I'm here in my apartment,
rambling insane and mad
Vexation of mind
Vexation of soul
Baby, vexation of eye and eye
The Creator gave me a shot of his presence,
I wasted it chasing your insufferable beauty
I gave my love for no good reason
And you, Indian Dream, didn't care
I'm a bodiless consciousness, teeth of the nothing, Satan licked my
burnt weeny and then, ten years animal suicides and
screams molten plastic, fifteen angstroms of
purgatory, why?
I search your face,
real as light,
hear your weird words sewn
soft into the webworks,
"There are many kinds of love
and I have known some of them."
So what -- so fucking WHAT, bitch-hole?!?!?
Vexation of mind
Vexation of spirit
Vexation of soul, of soul
Are you ready for the kill, jolly Jezebel?
You bitch,
seducer of mens' souls,
Ungodly girl,
giggling harlot,
let my cry come unto you
My heart have you
favor you with cunning
and new species of fractal orchids
We have dug up rage!! I say
The amphitheatre of the genital sun is a dungheap, and I am a
dungheap, and Brooklyn is a dungheap, where you lay legs
splayed under your toy boy, idiot lover, broken statue of
moron dawns with his own particular truth and lies
shocked from their essences
We have dug up fuck, fuck on!!!
An ailing truth bleeds out of your pussy,
of my mouth and pathetic poetry,
And toward the truth
the soul is bent
Binding shaped fire to cold event
Penetrating the emptiness
Sleeping in the depths of eyes
And eyes and eyes
-- Babe, babe, sweet babe, we have dug up rage!!!
Vexation of mind
Vexation of eyes
Vexation of bodies
Vexation of crazed imagination, creativity doomed to have no use,
to sit here scribbling while the shallow souls laugh romp and play
with angel girls like you
I'm with you in Brooklyn –
Holy! Holy! Holy! Holy! Holy!
The world is holy! The soul is holy! Your hole is holy, holy!
Holy bloody bungholes in holy bloody bungalows! Holy psycho
dreams and screams, holy bloody seraphim, holy fucking jazz, punk,
filth, tongue tracing your mustache, sex friction blisters, forgiveness,
charity, master equations, eunuch bananas, delirious monkeyful
cheese. Peyote solidities of your firm yet gentle water-breasts. And
children mouthwrecked in the zoo. And nothing ever working.
Holy! Holy!
Somehow I always lose – Holy! Holy!
The best morons of my generation suck the pussies of infinite babes
and fuck them over and over in beds of melting plastic and sing
them melodies in proper chords only please, while we geniuses of
delirium walk all night through solo streets, the trees adding shade
to shade, subtracting love in imaginary units from the uncountable
sum in the curve of your hips, your hips now swaying around the
waist of someone who is not this one
And here I think at the sun –
I am with you in Brooklyn!!
Vexation of jealous love!
Vexation of mind,
of eye,
of body
Vexation you stupid sun
Howl, children, yackettyacking screaming vomiting whispering facts
of mind and crying fragments of collective unconscious,
binding feelings into motions,
binding motions into structures,
binding structures into living lies
Vexation of mind
Vexation of soul
Vexation of eye, of eye
Vexation of mind
Howl! Vexation of soul
Howlhowl! Vexation between your thighs
Vexation of mind
HowlHowl! Vexation of soul
HowlHowl! Vexation of eye, of eye
Vexation of jealous fucking love!
Howl! Howl! Vexation of fucking mind!
P.S.
Howl, indeed!
Who among us has the courage to howl these day?
Instead we sit in our cars, commuting to work, filled with impotent
frustration.
Instead we snap at our children when they ask us perfectly natural
questions.
Instead we glare at our husbands and wives, spreading spite instead
of love.
Instead we drag our tired bodies to bars where we suck down mildly
psychedelic poisons, deluding ourselves that this is the key to
happiness.
Motherfucker! Such is our lot indeed.
Howling at the moon might perhaps be preferable.
And we delude ourselves, remember, that we have understood the
origin of the universe.
We delude ourselves that our mathematical equations have
penetrated to the heart of being.
We believe that it all began with one small point, one infinitesimal,
mathematical instant, which suddenly tired of its nothingness and
burst, exploded, created itself and the universe, transformed from
infinite undifferentiated energy madness into a specific
configuration, a high energy system in which particles were mushed
together and slowly separated into their own domains of being,
which cooled down gradually forming laws of motion, atoms,
molecules, galaxies, suns, planets, people, poems.
What a conceit. What a crock of pig feet. What a hunk of shit.
Anyone with even a smidgen of sense can see that it began with the
lovers' kiss.
Howl! Howl! Howl! Hooowwwwwlllllll!!!!!!!
A small element of truth, a jewel in the shit-heap of madness that is
the human universe, is contained in the center of that howl, its pure
animal soul perfection.
Howl strange orchids of inner gardens, howl out your truth and your
passion perfection, fucking howl, fucking howl howl howl!!!